19 Remaining.

A lot has happened in the last couple weeks, and I've been lost in all I've crashed into. A lot has changed in my world, but reality is, tomorrow should be be so fortunate we'll all wake up to the same sky, and sleep to the same stars. There are times even the stars refuse to shine for me... and these were those times.

As the departure comes closer, this trip, soul seeking journey... or this adventure seems like one that worries me in the back of my mind. I hope this isn't good bye to any of you, just good bye to a part of me. Let me return with a soul.

As we learn to crawl, then walk we gradually learn to support ourselves and we learn to let go. Then when we're old... we find support again. Refuse to find support, I refuse to hold on... and I strive to let go. Reject failure. Even the best fall down some times, its how we get up, how we fight to get up, our drive to achieve, and then finally, its our push to go on living. Theres no difference how weak you are, or where you are in the world, once you win this struggle, the stars are that much more satisfying when you know they shine for you.

Night and day are the same around the world, for the rich, for the poor, for the living. Let you always be priviledged to see the night sky. To see the stars shine bright, and the sun rise strong. Remember as humans we have no right to judge and the stars shine for all of us. Cherish the fact that no matter where we are, theres always something above us. The sky that blankets us, and the heavens that surpass us. Though our individual peace of sky may occasionally be cloudy, it will blow over and the stars will be visible. They're always there... just not always in view.

Play connect the dots with the stars until the sun rise, and chase the sun into the moon and the clouds past the horizon. Draw connections to other people, make the journey and point out nature's beauty. Live not in ignorance, but live with attention, see what's beyond and reach for what's distant. Sometimes the best things are what you work for, and the greatest feeling is getting them. You have truly learned when you have experienced, so experience it. Carry your self, your friends are companions on this journey, be not a burden but take support when necessary and give in when you're strongest. Sometimes a walk alone leaves you lost, cold and helpless. Guiding lights can be found, they're usually in a place called hope; often located in other people. Even when all seems helpless, someone is there for you, recognize this.

Let fate decide not our lives. Let us follow our desires. Should fate have me die tomorrow, let me feel fufilled. Have not regrets. Have not desires. Have fufillment. Do not leave until tomorrow what you can delegate today, as tomorrow is often taken for granted. The best sunrises are those which you watched sunset and waited for sunrise to compare to. What you have worked and waited for, the most anticipated are the finest moments. What makes the differentiations from carbon to diamond is millions of years... and timless polishing. The time, patience and work is immesureable, much like the gleam a diamond shows as the light is captured within it. Live life to the fullest, as living it half full is missing out on half the glass. To live in fear, is to not live at all. To live in expectation, is to live in mediocrity. Live in anticipation of better things, and find them for yourselves. Being able to get them makes allows you to say you've deserved them.

Thank you for being there for me. The heavens shine for all of us and I hope they shine finer for you, thank you for enjoying it with me. Thanks for connecting the dots with me, because without you, the picture is lost.

Song of the day:

Howie Day - Collide

Out of the doubts that fill my mind, I somehow find you and I collide.