4 Remaining.

With every day, comes a new stress, with every breathe comes closer to death. And all the mistakes you've made in the past just become repeats when you're falling apart. Never again would I make those same mistakes. Never again would I want to relive this. Never again.

Choices I've made, despicable. Acquiantances I've made, disposable. Friends I've made, I'll miss you dearly. With every breath taken, I feal its a breath wasted. Time spent without you, is just time spent. And without you all I've have never made it this far. Simply amazing.

All material things made, are material things lost. Those things are left behind... people however, I never want to leave. All and all, its petty. All the things I've thought about... trivial. What's important we often take for granted. And its those things, we'll miss the most.

Some things will just never change... but some things I guess I'll never know. With life, nothing can be expected. And those who fail, were looking for handouts. Tough breaks come when you work the hardest, and yet you fail. Just hope that the time you fail, you have the will to get back up. Whether or not I'll get back up... questionable.

If you've ever been speechlessly frustrated, you know how it feels. If you've ever been backed into a corner backwards and blind in the dark... you understand how lost I am. Please let me be found. And please let me find the light within; because any longer... and I will never see again. I feel like... just breaking down... and staying here forever.

All and all, its like... being so hurt; but not being able to find the wound. Knowing you've wronged, but cant find a right. Worked so hard, only to be shot down. Being so lost, and there seems to be no way. Surrounded by a million people, yet no one I know. Having so much, yet nothing at all... Do you ever feel that way? No more... please...

I feel like dissapearing, just like my world is. I just want... to turn away. Would you miss me?

Song of the day:

Ja Rule - Never Again

I'm tired of feelin the pain but ain't fightin the feelin