Torn -

Torn into pieces, caught inbetween, often irrepairable. One of the worst feelings. Follow your heart, follow your mind... follow your dreams. But really... when they conflict where do you go?

Like the line "Theres the one you love, and the one you marry, lets just hope its the same person". How would it feel living your life, having regret it every day... and wishing you would have picked the alternative. What is the solution?

What decides for you? Who decides for you? In the end, its you. Its not right, or wrong, its right now. Live for the now and first and then the then; but ensure your now leads to a then. Don't pick the right now that makes you miserable then... just because its a right now doesnt mean it has to be dumb. The worst thing in life is regret. When torn think of the long run... but think of what it means to be torn.

To separate forcefully; wrench
To divide or disrupt: was torn between opposing choices

Do you feel your heart wrench, does your sleep get disrupted... your mind divided...?

It could mean right now, or it could mean right. Try to make things right, because when its left behind... you may never make it back. Justify it at the moment and keep justifying it, when you find your justification is convincing yourself, its not worth it... because a part of you knows is wrong. Weigh out the positives, weigh out the consequences... but when done, its done.

As Donnie Brasco puts it "When they send for you, you go in alive, you come out dead, and it's your best friend that does it." so make the right choices, for the right reasons and the right people, and know what makes things worth it... because sometimes, expectations just lead up to dissapointments. On the same note, dont get used to disspointing or dissapointment. It just sets up for a world of hurt. Standards are just benchmarks, setting them lower makes them easier to get surpassed... but as well dont set your expectations too low... or anything will do. Strive for excellence.