Distant

Where are you now? Where am I? Where have I been? What's changed.

What puts the distance between people, be it emotionally or physically. Geographically... being in the same city, or province, makes it feasible to visit within reason... technology allows us to interact on a fairly personal level. But what happens when the contact is severed?

Make an effort... or look and see if the other person is making an effort... it's tough sitting waiting for a call... or waiting for a text... someone to come online... etc if you really need to talk... if you need it... close the gap. If you don't want to... and they don't get to it, don't ponder it... if that person feels too distant... and nothing can close that gap, it becomes the equivilant of the Grand Canyon, and isn't going to fix itself, so forget it. Theres no time where its been easier to interact...

If neither of you make an effort to get in touch... that says a lot about your relationship... in this day and age, it doesn't take much. Then you start to feel... like you've been far away for far too long... when its really, just a click, a call, a second away... and it becomes the past... they become a piece of your past... and thats how regrets happen. Don't let it happen... because somewhere in there, you miss them, and they miss you. Theres probably a reason why they were in your life to begin with..

Song of the day:

Nickleback - Far away

Far away for far too long

Not Enough.

Have you ever felt the world and everyone around you asks too much from you? Tell you what to do, how to do them, but really... it takes too much out of you to do so? The worst part is that sometimes you know that they're right. But its the pressure thats too much. Being right isn't the concept, its respect and personal space... understanding... its not wasting time... It's realizing that conquerers conquer in a lifetime.

Why don't you just let time stop for a second. One time... just lay there... and forget the world. If it gets done now... if it gets done later... what changes? As long as it gets done. We all run at our own paces... often with breaks... occasionally with pauses and sometimes our comfortable pace is the best for us... why is it that deadlines, due dates and demands run our lives? In the corporate world, they have control.. but when it comes to our personal lives... why is it that our life begins to look like a phone bill... every second costs us something... every call, piece of communication takes time and a bit out of our pocket... and if we don't pay our dues... we'll pay for it later. Don't make your life and your friends a part of the corporate billing by the second world.

Take a look at ourselves... why the demands... why the deadlines. School be school, work be work... and these demand deadlines... but when it comes to life and decision making, take it slow. Take a second to breathe. Before we get too old and find out its too late... and give me that same priveledge, or before you know it... I'll walk out of your life too. Because I'm not something you pay your time too... I don't make demands on payment... and I don't charge interest... simple as that. Membership is free... and no commitments required.

Give everyone that oppertunity. Life is stressful... relationships shouldn't provide more of that stress. Sometimes... you just have to lower your expectations, and increase your patience quotient... because sometimes... your pace isn't someone elses... the world wasn't built in a day... we weren't born walking... and I don't wake up everyday telling myself in order to fufill my friendships I must appease you by doing such and such. When I wake up like that... remind me to tell you that I hate you... for killing what's left of me and my personality.

Song of the day:

Snow Patrol - Chasing cars

Just know that these things will never change for us at all... because I know that I don't want anyone or anything to change for me.

Grow up.

Take some responsibility for your actions. Realize what went wrong, fix it. Realize what you can change, do it. Make it your goal in life. It'll help you grow up and mature. Maybe age has no factor in that. Experience does; growing up isnt about how old you are, or the gray hairs on your head. Maturation is taking control of the situation and handling it LIKE an adult. There's children that handle some things better than adults... adulthood is just a stereotype. There are ton's of incompetant adults. Don't let yourself fall into that trap. Follow through on what you say you will. Make things happen. Troubleshoot. Make you're own decisions. Conformity is childsplay. Trends and cliques are "so last year" and lets be humane. Stereotypes, Santa Clause and Stupidity are the joys of childhood. Take your punishment as it is served; lumps in your potatoes and enjoy life. Pouting gets you no where so put a smile on tomorrow, and realize you control your life. You're not getting babied for ever. And if you're looking for sympathy in someone. Realize this; why let someone feel sorry for you; just feel sorry for yourself and make a change. Not even God can help someone who can't help himself. That's why, they're just prayers.