You will never know.

"Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future."
-Fulton Oursler

Both thoughts of the past as well as the future are a waste of time. Time fails to stop as you stop it to think about what you've already done and what you wish to do. The actions which you wish to complete will only fail to be achieved if you continue to dwell on what you have done wrong in the past. The fear for the future only prevents you from making the present the best possible, however is it ever contemplated what would occur should there be no future?

As Oscar Wilde has once said "One's real life is often the life one does not lead." By continuing to putting off what you may delegate today, it is inevitable that the days pass faster than you'd wish they did and in the end you'll find that your achievements are mediocre in the frame of things. When you lack the motivation to strive to succeed you'll notice that even the smallest failures are the biggest impacts.

It is often said that in the final moments of your life, your life flashes before your eyes - your job is to make it worth watching. With the perpetual motion of the stars, the sun and the moon, it is inevitable that the sun will continue to rise and time will progress. Whether you progress with it is up to you. Do not forget, life owes no existence to you. Time will progress regardless as the world does not revolve around you. It is up to you to go to bed at night recalling what you accomplished that day rather than what you wished to accomplish. The harder you push at the end of a day, the sweeter the rest comes and the satisfaction is immeasurable, and you yourself will find that you control how many revolutions you will make with the world and how quickly they go by.

Like a child knows not the taste of sweetness until one tastes sugar. Like a child knows not to cherish the sweetness until he tastes bitter... like the child knows not that he values his toys, until they're gone. The toys which you may take advantage of may not always be there... don't forget all the pleasure they provide... don't break them, don't lose them, because some times... nothing can rebuy the joy that it's given you, and though the toys may be replaced with others, there's always the one from childhood you never forget. As this child, we are introduced to sweetness and bitterness, what we need to do, is learn to value the sweetness. Not forget the bitter, but find and cherish the sweet. If this child spends all his time thinking about sweet and never seeking more... that may be the taste that remains solely a memory. Why is it that kids are always willing to taste, to try and to attempt to find things they like... however we hold fear in such an esteem that we discredit adventure and risk. Risk is what will help you find those sweet things.

You will find the more you try, you find the sweetness you love. Settle for nothing but the best. You deserve it. Things with sugar are inevitably sweet however, the question is what do you like the best. Be it chocolate, be it cake, be it gummi bears or lollipops, there are hundreds of different sweets. Don't just settle for the second best dessert in your opinion. Strive to get what you love the most. What you wish to enjoy... just because its sweet doesn't mean its the best you can get. If you have to push that much harder to get the dessert you wish, it will be that much more satisfying. That much sweeter... sometimes it just takes a little bitterness to bring out the flavor. Next time you crave sweets, eat the most bitter thing you can find, and you'll find the sweets are that much sweeter. That's what life is like, without the bitters you wouldn't cherish the sweets. Without the darkness we wouldn't know light, without pain, we wouldn't know happiness.

Your life is your candy shop. Don't let the past and the fear of the future rob you of your treasures. The prices you may pay are small in comparison to the greatness you will receive. Make the sacrifices, and recognize the inhibitions which you have holding you to the crucifix. Pulling your arms away from the distant parts of the continuum, bringing your limbs to your core, allow you to live in the present... where you yourself can choose where to go, allowing you to protect what may come at your center in the present. With your arms spread out... stretching you across time and space, you make yourself more vulnerable than ever, allowing regret and fear to whip you with all their might. By stretching on that continuum, all pain you feel is self induced... you choose to drink the vinegar which may slightly soothe your thirst... but the thirst only intensifies. You make yourself a martyr, which only you yourself understand what sacrifices you're making... who are you living for... and who are you hurting for, but you yourself are human... just short of what would be worshipped. Unfortunately your existence is less than religiously recognized.

Protect yourself... and rise against the planks of time. Make life's replays worth watching... and make memories you wish to relive. Seek dessert after your meals... and don't be afraid of a little bitterness... because the sweetness tastes that much better. Live for yourself and live for the present... as it is the gift which you create. Your life is but an empty box. What you choose to fill it with; the rocks of burden or the light and beautiful easy going emotions... it is all what you choose to place in it.