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I was mad that you were gone... all my friends are moving on. I'm sad that we're apart, and I wish things could just be how they used to be... whether you feel the same I'm not sure, but I'm sure at once time or another, you've had the feeling.

But what have I done to change it, what have you done to stop the drift. Yes, we're busy; but are we "busy". Is busy just another way of saying that it's your excuse not to deal with it? Is it your excuse to say its not your fault? Is it the reason why you're drifting, you need to answer for your self.

Why we're busy? The world around us, suddenly our hands are full, with work, school, family and new friends which are constantly in our view. But how can we compromise what has been with us all this time. Understandably, we only have two hands, therefore once we are carrying whats closest, we drop the past behind. Like the one who buys things before the old are wrecked... we seem to easily replace things. The problem is that people aren't materials, they have feet and can walk beside you as long as you occasionally lend a hand, lend an ear and make a little effort. We're not busy. It's just a charade.

Learn to juggle. Our hands are "full", but we can have things on the go, its not necessary to carry things hand in hand. Not every person needs you to hold their hand along the way, and at the same time, your social life doesnt need to be the focus you're babying. Nothing needs to be the egg on a spoon while you walk life. Learn to juggle, as much as you think everything is ever so fragile and can only carry so much as you leave things behind... someday you'll forget these things or they'll be gone never to be retrieved. Not everyone waits for you, and good things seem to get picked up... so dont wait until its too late. Little by little start picking things up, learn to walk picking up whats behind you, bringing it closer and rotate your priorities. Mix things up. You might have to walk a little slower, you might have to work a little harder to keep things in check, but you're bringing everything with you. You're keeping an eye on things, then gradually, you'll learn to juggle. You'll never know how fragile things are until they drop. Even if they drop, things might be a little damaged but you still have it. Having left it behind and regretting it may hurt far more than the scratch you might leave in it.

Whats it all mean? Money's just money. Make enough to live... you can't take it with you and money won't comfort you when you're sad. School is your future, but you can't live it alone; the difference between a 3.3 and a 4.0 may seem huge but in the end, work for what you need. Friends don't wait forever if neglected and if they can't take the falls when they're dropped, they weren't worth bringing along; but if you left one behind who's waiting... go back and get them or they'll walk out on you forever. Love? The difference between love now... and love then, what will stay with you. If your relationship can't take the bump in the road and hearts entangled are more fragile then the egg in the spoon, its not worth it... babying it and dropping everything you should be carrying just isn't worth it. Learn to juggle.

Song of the day:

Social Code - Miss You

Can't keep my laughter from healing all my pain, but at the same time; don't ignore the pain.